it's been so long since i've done this, so i'm not sure if this will make any sense...but, whatever.

being in the motherland has been strange in so many ways.. just some things i noticed:
- there are so many paris baguettes here. it's like starbucks. i guess before i leave, i should try it.
- everyone here has a portable tv. EVERYONE. it makes me want one, but i would have noooo use for it.
- the recession doesn't seem to have affected korea in any way. there is so much shopping! and there are so many shoppers! honestly, i have never seen so many stores/items in my entire life...
- the food really is as cheap as they say. it's not as good as i expected though. maybe it's just cuz i expected too much? i haven't had anything that has been reaaaaallllly good. although, i did eat a moroccan sandwich, which was pretty darn good. (thanks mierie!)
- it is necessary to carry around extra napkins.
- it smells bad here. like sewer.
- 50% of people are completely and absolutely rude. 50% of the people are pretty nice.

the end

good food, great music, great company.. what a wonderful night!



they are so awesome live!

My life,
Has led me down the road that's so uncertain
And now I am left alone and I am broken,
Trying to find my way,
Trying to find the faith that's gone
This time,
I know that you are holding all the answers
I'm tired of losing hope and taking chances,
On roads that never seem,
To be the ones that bring me home

Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I've been trying to find my way,
I haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without You
I've got nothing without You

My life,
Has led me down this path that's ever winding
Through every twist and turn I'm always finding,
That I am lost again (I am lost again)
Tell me when this road will ever end

Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I've been trying to find my way,
I haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without You
I've got nothing without...

I don't know where I can turn
Tell me when will I learn
Won't You show me where I need to go
Oh oh
Let me follow Your lead,
I know that it's the only way that I can get back home

Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I've been trying to find my way,
I haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without You
I've got nothing without You

Oh, give me a revelation...

I've got nothing without You
I've got nothing without You

.. wow

i'm in love with the rock.

trying to get ready for the holidays.. :)

Wednesday, May 09, 2007
God, do you have a plan for me? I mean, I know eternally, but here, in this life.. specifically in my career, do you have a path?

I'm so confused. I'm so miserable. Am I just being a brat?

Do you have a job for me that I will find purpose in going to daily? Am I just not listening? Lord, if I'm not listening, please, give me ears to hear. Am I completely in the wrong profession? Do you want me to go another path, despite all the schooling I went through? If that's the case, Lord, I will follow, if only You would lead me.

Lord, uncover my ears, my eyes, my heart and guide me. Help me to trust You. That you have a place for me in the working world. Help me not to settle. Help me to fight for what's important to me. To You.

I pray these things in Your Heavenly Name.. Amen

Basically, since May of 2007, I was actively aware how miserable I was.. yet, I wasn't able to move forward or away from it. In the end, I was unable to move until I was forced. I don't know why it always has to end this way, but for some reason, it seems that God thinks there is a lesson that I haven't learned yet.. or a lesson that I need to learn better. For whatever reason, here I am again.

I'm still not sure what my next step is. The future is uncertain. I've found peace despite that, and for that I feel immensely blessed. I still worry, but in the end, I know that everything happened for a reason, and it happened because it was best for me. I still want to have faith that there is something better for me out there.. even in this crazy economy. I want to have complete faith that God has my back. Some days are harder than others, but I think I do have faith in Him.

Of course this post is one month late, but, as they say, better late than never..?